I just came from seeing the new Michael Jackson movie, This Is It. It was quite a feast for the eyes. I inicially didn't want to go see it due to the fact that I thought I was going to break down every 7 minutes. I don't like getting emotional in public, much less at a movie theater. I thought to myself 'I need closure on all this' and went. I also wanted to support Michael's estate for his children. Needless to say, I only brokedown twice: During 'I'll be There' and the 'Man in the Mirror'.

I catched the 4:30 show. There weren't that many people. Good. Less people would see me cry. Most crowds really come in at 8:00 PM shows anyway. The film itself made 20 million the first day.

So the movie starts with 'Wanna be Startin' Something' which I thought was really cool. Got me bouncin' on my seat. I won't get into detail about the film because I don't want to spoil it for anyone, but all and all it wasn't what I expected. It was better then I expected.

You saw Michael in complete control of the whole situation. The way he wanted a certain song to sound. The way the bass was suppose to sound. The way the dancer's were suppose to move. When to turn and how to turn. How the guitarist was suppose to move along with him. How a song needed to "simmer".....everything was all Michael Jackson. He had his magic finger's in everything. It pretty much sticks it  to the idiots who run that awful This is NOT It campaign. Those folks, with their hysteria and ridiculous over the top "testimonials" couldn't have been proven more wrong. Michael proved them wrong. Granted, I am sure Michael had his days when he was fatigued and ill (he did suffer from Lupus) and I am sure he didn't attend rehearsals on those days. But I guess those idiotic 'Not' campaigner's wanted to see all that on film. They wanted to see what was the "truth" in their minds. I guess they find Michael gasping for air or vomiting more entertaining. That would be a great way to remember a genius. That pretty much tells you how selfish some fans are out there.

Kenny made a film for fans to remember what a great loss we had. I applaud him for focusing on what Michael loved the most: Music. For many years, due to scandal, witchhunts and media ridicule - people had forgotten what a brilliant artist this man really was. Singer, dancer, producer, composer, lyricist, innovator - Michael was all that and more.

It's a great fucking lost and this film will slap that across your face for two hours straight. How could we have treated this man so badly when he was alive? How could many have abandoned him? Accuse him of shit that weren't true? Ridiculed him? Yes, I'm looking at you mass media.

Watching this film will leave you with an ache in your chest from the pain of the lost of this wonderful creature. There will never be another one like him. And you know it too.

What I love the most is the ending. There was no "RIP". There was no "In Memory of". There was simply "Michael Jackson: Now and Forever". I loved that. I applaud Kenny for keeping it classy. This film could have gone all wrong in many way...But Kenny Kept it the way Michael would have wanted his fans to remember him: It's all about the music.

Thank you Kenny Ortega.

Now, I always been a fan of both men. Not "overly obsessed" type of fan like some fans are, but I do (did) like both men.

The comparison's of Roman to Michael on some of these sites need to stop. For one thing, Roman fled from justice. Michael went to court to deal with it. Granted, the first child molestation case he paid off, but he paid off just to move on with his life. He was sick of the bullshit surrounding him, it was hurting his carer and the media was having a field day. Of course, that advice given to him ended up being the worst thing he could have done. I think justice would have prevailed if Michael had gone to court for his first accusations. Luckily, he didn't listen to his advisor's the second time around and took it to court.

Roman Polanksi is a brilliant director. I love all his films.

But he fled: FACT.

Going by what I read all over the media from the past few years, he drugged the girl, then had sex with her. The girl didn't think of it as rape. But I would like to think, Roman being the adult here, had to know, you don't fuck a 13 year old girl - no matter how "sexy young girls" are.

He should have stayed in America. Should have gone through the court proceedings. People who have nothing to hide, don't flee to Europe.

Micheal had nothing to hide because he was innocent.

No more comparison's. PLEASE.

Both of these men are totally different cases.

So I decided to remove the Ville Valo layout I had for ages and put this Amy Lee one that I thought it was gorgeous. I didn't create it, but I credited the person who did make it.

Amy Lee is one beautiful girl, despite her issues that dance within her.

For some reason or another, I posted some MJ news on ONTD and they rejected it for "not being new news" or whatever. I posted these photos within the threads and it was also rejected.

Whatever. I'll post it here on my site. Btw way, for those who have a twitter account, you can add me here http://twitter.com/starlight_wings

( Photos of Michael from back in the day )

My high school spanish teacher Miss Isabel Arseni. I have never forgotten her. She passed away from cancer right when I was in high school. I wish I could have gone to see her. She was so vain, she didn't want anyone to see her in the hospital without her beautiful full curly red hair. She lost it all from chemo. She use to call me 'Madonna' back then. I use to have platinum blond hair...and when I was acting up she would scream "MADONNA!!!!"

I miss her.

Lestat. Just because he was a crazy fucker with no mercy. How elegant, wild, mad and charming is Lestat...

Fuck Edward Cullen. Real vampires don't sparkle. But I blame that on Meyer's and her pathetic books then Robert Pattison, who is a brilliant actor in his own right. I recommend the film version of Interview With the Vampire. It's not point and point like the book. But there are many scenes that are faithful to Anne Rice's book.

Taking the internet too seriously. Getting into fights with a bunch of lousy lowlive's who weren't worth my time much less my emotion or energies. if I knew then what I know now, I wouldn't have wasted my time with that sort of bullshit.

So I tried very much to get away from the Micheal Jackson hoopla, with no success. I watched the memorial yesturday and you bet, I cried. Just hearing his music and what people said brought me back to 1984, when I was a kid and just heard Thriller. Also, his daughter speaking out yesturday humanized him.

There's alot of new info coming out now about him. I had no idea Micheal had Vitiligo. Nor did I know he had Lupus.

There are sites that talk about it.

All the background information is there, i won't post it, because it is so complex
http://floacist.wordpress.com/2007/06/12....ichael-jackson/
Also:
http://floacist.wordpress.com/2007/06/10/vitiligo-photos-michael-jackson/
http://allspokentruth.blogspot.com/2009/....eed-to-see.html

I had no idea...

All this time I thought he was trying to be white. It just goes to show you, you really don't know what's really going on behind the scenes. Maybe if MJ talked about it in the early 80's when it started, people would have not been so quick to judge.

I would live in the 1960's. Especially 1967-1969. I LOVE the 60's. There's something magical about that era. Granted there was a lot of violence. You have the deaths of JFK, Malcolm X, Martin Luther King as well as The Vietnam War and segregation, but the music and films of that era were incredible. Musicians gave a fuck about their music. It was passionate and beautiful. Films had substance. None of that fake CGI bullshit or green screen.

It truly is the end of an era. Virgin Mega Store in Union Square is shutting it's doors in a few days. The one at Time Square closed down a few months ago and the one in Union Square stayed up. First it was The Wiz back in the early 90's. Then it was HMV in Herald Square, which was replaced by Victoria Secrets. Then it was Tower Records (still stands vacant after all these years). Then they closed FYI a few months ago and now Virgin Mega falls victim. I use to love wandering aisle after aisle of CD's, just peering through hundreds of new released CD's. That is now gone. All we have now is the ever so shitty Best Buy and the small indie record stores. Thank goodness the indie stores I always went to are still open. My personal favorite is Generation Records @ Bleeker ST.

Anyway, I purchased a few goodies that I normally would not have bought due to how fucking expensive Virgin sold their merch. Everything is 70 to 80 percent off at the store right now. CD wise I bought Paramour's live CD/DVD for $2.99, Nightwish Made in Hong Kong CD/DVD also for $2.99, a Doors t-shirt $4.00, a super cool $40.00 Rollingstones Messenger bag for $7.00(!!) and Jared Leto's Chapter 27 for $4.00. I didn't spend more then $20 for all that, stuff that I never could have bought freely at it's regular price.

Thanks for the memories Virgin Mega. You will be fucking missed.



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I tried burning some DVD's from youtube to a DVD-R. It didn't work. Some fool in my class said that I would be able to do it since I have a cd burner. That's not the damn case. Just because my PC has a cd burner (which I use religiously) doesn't mean I can burn DVD-R too. First of all, I can't even play DVD's on my PC. Never worked. All I can do is listen, rip and burn CD's. I was pretty dissapointed to say the least but at least I fucking tried.

30. I turned 30 on April 21.

30

It's funny because I don't feel 30. I feel like I'm 19. I wish I was 19. I could get a second chance on things that I regret today. There are things I would have done so differently.

Regrets. Lots's of regrets.

And anger. Loads of it.

Recentful. Damn straight.

phew.

Now I'm off to watch Supernatural.

( *Bat for lashes scans + articles + ect* )

There was a scene I saw on youtube one time from Kim Kardashian's show. While the family was sitting in the car enjoying the road and the scenery, there was Kim sitting there taking fucking pictures of herself. I thought to myself "how shallow and self important is this woman???". Even her mom was like "Put the camera away Kim! for once!"

An article came out today about Forever 21 coming out with a plus size clothing line and a picture of Kim appears in the article. You can read her statemnt here: http://kimkardashian.celebuzz.com/2009/04/dear-us-weekly-i-love-forever.php#comments

She's not a fucking size 2 and anyone with working eyeballs can fucking tell that this bitch is lying through her teeth. She's so insecure...and the truth is she hates herself. Anyone who loves themself would not have to lie and pretend to be something or someone that they are not. She has to remind people that she is a size 2 over and over again on her site. She use to sell her clothes on ebay. Guess what? They were all ranging from size 8 through size 10.

Get over yourself lady. There are people in India who are fucking starving. Instead of whining that your not fat, thank god you can have a warm plate of food in front of you, because the way this fucking economy is going, not many have the luxury.

This is Hollywood kids.  Land of the plastic, stupid and shallow. What's wrong with being a plus size anyway? Fuck it I'm plus size right now. Not proud of it or anything, but fucking hell - I would never go around telling people I'm a size 2 when I am actually a size 12! Not even that fat blubber ass can fit into a size 6 jeans even if she wanted to.

I haven't posted in a while. So busy in school...I even withdrew from a class today. Math Statistics. I was lied to about that class being easy. Bullshit. I never seen more symbols and numbers on a board in my life.

But just reminder to people of my fabulous site dahhhlings:
http://sirensofsoundandimage.blogspot.com/

You can look to the right of my journal and see the other sites I run.

Off to see dancing with the stars...when you lack cable, you tend to watch shitastic shows on primetime.*sighs*

Just deep sadness for Natasha Richardson's death. So unexpected. I wasn't a huge fan of her's but I did see her in several films so I "knew" who she was. Just so sad. My heart goes out to her and her family. And yes I said her. I know people don't usually send condolences to the dead, but I believe even in spirit we all have some sort of emotion. The shock of knowing your dead... and your hovering over your body...

I guess I watch too many films or ghosts documentary. But death is not the end and I want to believe in that.